It’s been a long month away from home. The tendency to be overwhelmed with thoughts and desires is real. I feel a tightness in my chest, longing to be home to prostrate myself before her. While I rush headlong into my devotion I have to be mindful that she is still taking baby steps. I …
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I am bursting with enthusiasm, I want to dive in with both feet and be her everything. It is a difficult balance to separate my fantasy desires from the reality of her willingness and shock at all of this. She is being positive and open its hard not to just explode and babble on to …
As I work away from home with limited internet and cell service e-mails are an important way to stay in touch and express something in detail. Where to start, today I guess. Today I am filled with feelings of sadness and hope mixed together. I am disappointed in myself for what I have put you …
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The shower starts you twist, turn, splash and scrub. Water runs down the tub and out the drain as I lay and listen to your morning dance. The water stops you clean the walls, open the door into the cool air No sounds from towel as you dry yourself toilet flush sink drain swallows you’re …
Again I am found with the thoughts of familiarization Tainted memories of self. Childlike purity free from self or I is seen as possible but it is fleeting. I contemplate upon the realization that self is impermanent, not found When self is sought it is not found, but my thoughts exist, how who is this. …
bluesky dot of white seagull floats like a sailors life one speck of sand on an endless beach one among many tossed by the surf A life alone ,one speck of earth. sky, gull, sand, surf live your life for all its worth together, alone your never home surf, sand, gull, sky dot of white …
He was being quiet that was never a good sign. The road was no longer familiar and seemed less traveled since the last turnoff. She would remember how remote they were later when she had more time to think. Finally they slowed and pulled into a dirt lane, narrow and lined closely by low …
Someone said to me once, ” there is a handbook for Tops isn’t there? to which I replied ” I am sorry to say there is not.” What would go into such a document . Maybe some guidelines on the best implement for each type of bottom. No maybe some ^ secret notes only …
During my infidelity years I identified as a Dom. I kept a blog here on WordPress I had followers, I was respected and my opinion carried weight. Some of those people are still here, flourishing. The posts hereafter are things I saved. Sadly I closed the blog by hiding it and changing the password. It …
At 58 years old and 30 years of marriage I have pushed the boundaries of my wife’s patience. Fights, arguments, infidelities. Throughout it all she kept me, at times not by much but here we are. One morning being the big spoon reflecting on life it struck me. I was fighting her with my mere …
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