It’s been a long month away from home. The tendency to be overwhelmed with thoughts and desires is real. I feel a tightness in my chest, longing to be home to prostrate myself before her. While I rush headlong into my devotion I have to be mindful that she is still taking baby steps.

I know the idea of punishment is hard for you to understand so I will leave it alone and say only nothing hurts me more than your silence. I would endure any physical pain to avoid disappointing you and having you angry with me.
Pampering you, washing your feet. I can’t explain why your feet excite me so much. Other than they are exquisite.
I remember watching you walking ahead of me and seeing two middle age guys gawk at you walking in wedges and a shorts/skirt combo. You really are beautiful. The thought of coming home for a couple nights and a day has my stomach tied in knots. I crave to wash your feet. Scrubbing washing and soaping your feet is many things on many levels. It is me being subservient to you and showing you that you are my Queen. I take great pleasure in doing these things for you. While it excites me sexually it is more than that. It is not something you would otherwise do it’s something I can do for you. It makes my heart happy to do this for you.
It takes great restraint to not suck your toes. I know it’s not a turn on for you and makes you somewhat uncomfortable. For me it is immensely exciting. Anything you do to me with your feet like rub my face with them stand over me while I fixed the sink to the time you made me cum which was so good it was excruciating. All these things because of my desire to serve you and my excitement to do them are rewards or incentives. They are the power you have over me. I hope you learn how to use that power to keep me in line and have me serve your every need. I want to wait on you treat you like the goddess you are.
When I come home next I want to pour you a glass of wine and sit before you and wash your feet. Dry them and massage them with coconut oil. If I’m lucky you will let me suck your toes. I would love to slip your tall shoes on your feet and feel them scratch my back as I moved between your legs to eat you. Slowly with great relish. I am yours soul, heart and body and you are my Queen
Her reply:
Yes it’s hard to understand but I’m trying. I think we need to work on it when you are home. Talking about it through email may be helpful for you but not so much for me. I appreciate how you feel but I’m overwhelmed with a lot here as is on my own. I have a hard time getting everything done and dealing with everything without something else to worry about when you aren’t even here. I hope you understand. I am trying to be understanding. Love you xo





